Ben Affleck’s relationship with Jennifer Lopez ended five years ago, but apparently, the bad taste of J-Ho still hasn’t left his mouth. Ben recently did an interview where he continued to dwell on his massive mistake. According to him,

I was no longer in control of my life. I thought I wanted certain things, but I didn’t. I got lost. I felt suffocated, miserable and gross. I should never have gone down that route or got sucked in to all the publicity.

Bennifer broke up in 2004, right before they were set to get married. Shortly after that, Ben found another Jen who didn’t make him feel nearly as gross. They got married in 2005.