We now have more details on Jon Gosselin’s speech at a Rabbi Shmuley Boteach-sponsored event at NYC’s West Side Jewish Center yesterday. According to a source at the paid event, Jon opened up the public dialogue with a sincere-sounding speech, which included soundbites about fame, family, and god. Jon started by saying,

Thank you guys for showing up tonight, but please, stop showing up. I didn’t ask for this. I hardly ever go out in New York because of it. The paparazzi are everywhere here.

He then continued on to talk about the decision that he and Kate had made to not abort some of their sextuplets. According to him,

That’s what God wanted us to do. We were praying to God for one more baby, and He gives us six! We weren’t going to be like, ‘Thanks God, but we don’t want them.’ I wasn’t going to shake my fist at God.

Finally, he spoke about the deterioration of his marriage, and basically blamed TLC for ruining his life:

I don’t want this. I never invited any of this, all of a sudden I saw our marriage deteriorating. We were just trying to fix our marriage, but we couldn’t because of the circumstances.

Our marriage started to go downhill in October of last year. [TLC] wanted us to stay married. They were talking about branding and marketing, and we were just trying to think about our kids. They film conflict but not resolve. When Kate and I fought, we almost always resolved it, but you never saw that. They wanted to make it good cop, bad cop, so Kate was made out to be domineering, and I was just the laid-back one.

We had no break until December of last year. They want train wrecks and they do what they have to to get them. They were promoting our dissolving marriage on TV.

I tried to get Kate to go to counseling, and she just didn’t want anything to do with it. I went alone, because I figured it couldn’t hurt, but it obviously isn’t effective in the same way when both people aren’t there.

I knew our marriage was over. If one person is trying, and the other person isn’t, you start feeling neglected. And, of course, it’s not going to work.

I was getting no intimacy, no sensitivity from Kate. I felt emasculated and undesirable. My friends called and said they were going out. I said, ‘Kate, I’m going out,’ and she said, ‘No, you’re not,’ and then I left.

Half of the stuff that I’ve done, I shouldn’t have done. I chose fame because it made me feel better about myself. When you’re not getting positive reinforcement at home, you’re going to get it somewhere else. I was looking for the affirmation at the clubs and bars that I wasn’t getting from Kate at home. I think I was giving love, and it was being reciprocated back to me. I didn’t feel respected. She always said I was the ninth child, and I felt like the ninth child.

[I don't want to make] the same mistakes with Hailey [Glassman] that I did with Kate. There has never been like, ‘Kids, this your new stepmother,’ but we’ve decided to slow things down and so for right now we’re taking a break.

The media is calling Hailey a homewrecker. There are only two homewreckers and their names are mom and dad. We are the ones who filed for divorce.

I want to apologize to Kate in private for having public relationships, because if she had done that to me, I would have been pissed. Looking back on it, it seems like a knife in the back. Hailey and I talked about it and we said we never should have gone to France. We had no idea it was going to be like that.

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